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There is a certain scent in my memory, a scent
of harsh cleaning solution that includes ammonia and other things, a scent
that transports me in a flash to 1968, to Taylor Stratton Elementary School
in Madison, Tennessee, when I was about nine years old. The solution must
have been used to clean every inch of that old school.
There were two janitors at Stratton, a white man we called Mr. Suggs and a
black man we called Willie. The only black folks at Stratton were a few
cafeteria workers and Willie, a fact that never gave us kids much pause at
the time. Of the two janitors, we all knew Mr. Suggs was the boss. He never
smiled and never spoke to the children. Willie smiled and, if spoken to
first, spoke to us in very friendly but very short greetings.
Willie was always mopping at Stratton. He mopped the hallways and the
bathrooms everyday, and the scent of that strange cleaning solution remains
as strong in my memory today as it was in my nostrils then. And I can still see Willie,
pushing that mop or dipping it
into the bucket with the wringer.
The image of Willie made quite an impression on all of the children, and I
doubt if I am the only one who, more than forty years later, remembers his distinct
visage. The left side of his face was chiseled with handsome and kind
features, but the right side was horribly disfigured. The scars started at
his hairline and traveled down his face and neck, disappearing under his
shirt. His left eye was bright and welcoming, but his right eye was unmoving
and always covered by a half-closed lid. The origins of his disfigurement
were never discussed, and I don't recall giving it much thought beyond
revulsion. But now, some forty years later, I can't help but wonder at the
possibilities.
The scars looked as though some huge object had scraped against his
face, maybe his whole body, or that he had been dragged against the
ground, as if tied behind a pick-up truck and pulled
along the road. Perhaps he had been punished for saying the wrong
thing—or for looking too long at a white woman. These things happened in
the decades immediately preceding my childhood, and they happened with a
frequency too disturbing to ponder. Most folks don't. Then again, maybe he was
just playing in the back of his own daddy's truck and fell off on the
highway, or he might have been a combat veteran of World War II or Korea. I really
don't know.
But I do know that beyond these intellectual speculations there exists an
organic energy within my memory of Willie, an energy stronger than the scars
on his face or the toxic odors that burned my nostrils when I passed his mop
bucket, an energy not of sight or of scent but of sound.
Once or twice a year, Mrs. Ingram, the fierce little principal who must
surely have been born during the early years of Reconstruction, granted
Willie five minutes at the small upright piano in the cafeteria to play for the children. Normally this was where the music teacher would sit
and play along with the school choir or lead the students in patriotic songs
like "God Bless America" and "You're a Grand Old Flag." But on extremely
rare occasions it was Willie, not the music teacher, who would sit on the
bench and place his hands on the piano keys.
We watched him try to get comfortable, his back to the students, his head
tucked. He would wait a brief moment as if sorting through his mind for
possible songs to play, and then suddenly his left hand would be pumping a
rollicking rhythm while his right plucked out a solid lead. Instantly the
cafeteria was swaying and bouncing with a jubilation far exceeding anything
else that ever happened during my time in that little haven of formal education.
I was not yet ten years old, but the music that burst forth from that worn
and warped piano moved me in ancient ways. And once the first note leapt
from his fingers, Willie was no longer the disfigured janitor who mopped the
floors; he was a living and breathing vessel possessing the spiritual energy
of generations, for at that moment, Willie played the boogie, and it meant
something.

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